Gender Dysphoria

 I'm blind it took me 2 years to learn how to use my devices independently. I love gaming but often there's not any or many accessible games I can find and play. I was so happy when I found out there was descriptive audio aka self voicing. I'm non-binary and bisexual and it's hard for me to sometimes explain gender dysphoria. While it's different for everyone this game is really amazing and I'm so glad it's accessible for me too. Keep up the good work!

I have the attention span of a walnut and it's very hard for me to sit down and try out short game experiences, but I am so so glad I stuck it out for this one. It wasn't even sticking it out, I was immediately engaged! Excellent writing, excellent choices in timeline. Excellent use of choices! When it just cut to the courthouse outfit decision, it was a gut punch. Impossible choices, i s2fg. I'm non-binary and my experiences with dysphoria are very different from a lot of what is depicted here, but so so much of it hits the same. I just need to thank you that much more as a fellow trans person for the emotional labor that goes into creating an experience like this.

awesome game! i'm sharing it with irl friends, cis and trans alike <3 take care and thank you! 

Oof, this felt like getting teeth pulled, and I'm cis. I congratulate you for having the courage and artistic boldness to transcribe these expereinces in game form. It's a powerful work.

aww this is so good. At first playing made me uneasy because I'm AFAB but I don't identify that way so some choices didn't feel like the ones I would choose, but looking past it, everything feels really relatable, especially when you tell yourself that it's fine that someone misgendering you because it takes so much effort to explain to someone who you are when you aren't even going to see them again afterward. 

And like having to choose between correcting them on your pronouns or your name. I haven't gone to the court to change mine yet, but you did so well writing it out.

I love the non-linear spiral narrative of the story. New facets of scenes we've experienced are revealed slowly, microaggressions compound. It's really smartly written and designed. The sound design and voice acting are incredible. Yes it focuses on negative experiences, but the pacing allowed me to take my time without getting overwhelmed and the sound design coaxed me back into the experience. The game feels both generous and confident in that way. This would make a great series - I'm invested in the character and am rooting for her. 

as someone who is not trans, but still in lgbtq+ , I hard to fully understand the struggle trans people have in this world, but I really impressed with the voice acting, no image, just text and voice and I still can hear the pain in it. I love it...

Really, really fantastic work. It hit hard, haha. I hope you're doing good, you certainly deserve it.

This game was painfully accurate. I've identified as transmasc for like 5 years and nonbinary for the past 2 years. Coming out over and over again, debating your existence, serving as a diplomat for the trans community...it gets so exhausting. But hey, at least we have each other <3
This was nice, good work!

This is an amazing game. it truly is a piece of art

This game hit hard. I am an non-binary individual who used to identify as transmasc, and this game really reminded me of the times people would misgender me. Luckily, everyone I came out to was amiable and accepting (even if they did unintentionally misgender me quite a lot).

I literally made an account just to post this comment

as a trans person this hit hard for me im ftm i came out 2 years ago but im still misgendered and deadnamed im planning to come out again to show my mother that it wasnt a phase she has been using the word girl a lot more often and i mean a LOT and i hate it i have dysphoria a lot and its the worst feeling ever 

i loved this thank you for making this 

Happy pride month!! :)

I think this might be the first time I've left a comment on an itch game. I'm cis myself but someone I really care about recently came out as trans and... This activated my empathy something fierce. A lot of things I never thought about, experiences I never imagined. I hope I'm a bit more aware going forward to care for the trans folks around me. You've made something good for the world here. This is a special one.

ach. This is a very impactful game. Thank you for sharing, I appreciated it greatly. If only it were not so relatable

It certainly was an interesting insight.
But I wouldn't see this as a game, rather than just a story. The sounds and the "clicking to continue" doesn't really make it a game.

Anyhow, more people should see this story.

I found this page through the "Queer Games Bundle" and I'd just like to thank you for making it. I'm a straight cis man from Brazil and I am absolutely sure that this experience will help me to avoid making hurtful mistakes.

Dude, I feel like I have been going through Gender Dysphoria since I came out as Non-Binary, and to this day, my gender gets mistaken. This game helped me to understand not only the struggles of transgender people, but also to help me understand that gender dysphoria is something that everyone who changes their gender goes through. Thanks @exodrifter for making this. I wish you the best of luck! You are beautiful, no matter your gender (except me. I ugly (: ) <3

i feel so understood

this is one of the most well written game i've ever played in a long time plus the voice actors were amazing. 

well done 10/10

IT'S MA'AM

I am a cis person myself but thoughout the story i really enjoyed the how it showed the stuggle of trans people in modern day and camptures the deep meanings of what it was like although i have never felt that way myself game is 10/10

I have a lot of trans, non-binary and genderfluid friends. I always try to understand as much as I can about their experiences with gender dysphoria. This game was very interesting! I was really invested in what will happen next. I like how you keep finding out more and more about the mc. Tbh I could see myself in some of the characters: trying to be as supportive as possible, yet not sure if what they're doing is right. In some parts I just felt so bad for the mc: she can't really blame anyone for things that happen. Great game (also a note: the soundscape was suuuuper good!)

I'm masc nonbinary (they/them), and wow this hit hard. I'm only out to a few close friends and teachers irl, and it's so exhausting having to put up with everyone who doesn't know. I'm not comfortable correcting people and outing myself, but every single time someone says she there's that awful pang in my chest as I correct them in my head with a silent, upset "them." This entire game was made so well; the situations are so common and so frustrating, and the sound design was amazing. Hopefully, one day I'll be able to come out and actually be myself.

As a guy who came out to my mom a few months ago this hit hard and im so happy for those who can feel like themselves unfortunately I cant since my mom told me to never speak of it and pretends it never happened insisting on calling me she, sadly I cant do anything since im a minor but at least I have my friends and little siblings support your game is amazing and I really find it hopeful 

This hit me in the feels, I used to be in that phase of being trans, people seeing me as a feminine man, instead of a girl, my voice used to be my biggest insecurity but I've started voice training and it made it so much better along with Estrogen that stuff works miracles, loved this game left me crying after and I love you as the developer you did amazing encapsulating the feeling of gender dysphoria.

if this game was any longer i would've cried, this has helped me understand more about gender dysphoria.

This was haunting and gave me a lot of insight. Thank you for your work.

Lemme tell y'all how relatable af this game is for me. I'm not mtf but I am enby and I do present more feminine a lot along with the fact I was amab. I have gender dysphoria myself and my parents have questioned why a feminine name and she/they pronouns, asking if they call me their daughter or son and didn't like it very much when I said to call me their child. They told me that they have but I just never pay attention or care when I hear them call me their son all the time. It is pretty much only my family that I have to put up with for this, at least for who I'm out to. They are Christian and have questioned so many things and they piss me off with all these questions about me as though coming out wasn't hard enough. They get upset about me emailing them even though it's easier for me due to the fact I have extreme anxiety and I'm scared of what they might do. They then proceed to tell me they have done nothing to make me feel scared even though all they have done is make me scared and given me ptsd. 

I couldn't really relate to absolutely everything as I had different experiences as a black trans woman but I could feel the discomfort the protagonist was feeling and I could feel her inner turmoil.amazing story. 

Loved the pace and the mood set. Good job :)

I'm usually not much of a only text game but I really really liked this game. The sounds and everything, also the way the story was told was so interesting. An uncomfortable and good little game <3

You know, I'm a person who thinks games are art. I really do! Code is as good as if not better than paper, a stage or marble. But people like you really don't make my job easier.

You don't write a story about struggle of any kind without any characters (unless you count the amorphous blob of caricatures who all share the single personality trait of "did a mildly rude thing once probably")

You don't help anyone get what trans people are going through by publishing horribly-made games because guess what? Empathy exists! "I hope that it can give cisgender people an idea of what being transgender is like"

Not an in depth look, not an explanation, just "an idea" because no outsider can even comprehend your struggles.

And please for the love of whatever god you believe or don't believe in don't put glitchy sand-crushing noises in anything. It doesn't set any mood, it just makes everyone mute the game. What did you think would happen?

I don't really see myself as a sexist person, you may think otherwise which would be wrong by your way of thinking. Way to assume that everyone single "person who writes comments under games that are milking the emotions of people struggling with serious stuff" is sexist!

You can judge people by appearance, it's easier. Way easier. You do it, I do it, everyone does it! You are in no way obligated to spend the extra mental energy (no matter how miniscule it might be) to think about pronouns and shit. When talking to strangers that is. With friends or people you know, you absolutely should refer to them the way they prefer. Even if it's something as small as using a second-name or a nickname.

But still, no stranger has to give a single time-bending shit about you. Especially if you're always bitter about people not magically being %100 conscious about making you feel comfortable all the time.

Just get you head out of your fucking ass, and explain it to people if they ask. If they don't just ignore them. You don't become morally superior by over-explaining other thing so why would this topic lead to anything else?

I love this game so much i swear-

As a trans guy the "What did i do wrong" from the mother made me sob on spot/hj

it gets kinda oddly stressful(?) after seeing nothing but positive trans narratives, you really showed one of the other sides of what being trans is like and you did it so well too-

I liked your game, sometimes I feel flooded with the pressure of positive trans narratives when my experiences were pretty awful. 

Thank you for making this.  

BOOORRRIINNGGG

Great work! ^^